Tuesday, May 25, 2010

What a smile

Here is the little cutie after spending the entire afternoon spitting up large amounts of liquid ALL OVER! I had a basket of laundry that I needed to fold, but I kept pulling outfit after outfit out of it. He must have gone through 4 or 5 different onsies from the time I got home from work at 1pm until he went to sleep at 8pm.  But he was so cute and happy after each big spit up!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Little Prince

Isn't he just the cutest thing ever? He is starting to smile, big smiles with fun cooing noises.

And he loves his bathtime.

Well, he loves his bathtime until it's time to wash his hair. He is not so fond of that.

He just loves to cuddle and snuggle with Daddy


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Landon at work

Ryan and I did a drop off at work this week. Landon got to spend a few minutes with me at work while I finished up some paperwork.

He is very popular at my work. The residents love it when I bring him in. And it makes me happy that it makes them happy.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

The woman who made me a mother

I don't feel like today was my first Mother's Day. However, today was the first Mother's Day that I didn't spend with a headache from crying so much. Today was the first Mother's Day that my arms weren't empty. Today was the first Mother's Day that didn't have to force myself to go to church. In fact, today was my first Mother's Day that I didn't have an emotional breakdown while in church. In fact, I really didn't pay much attention this week to the fact that is was Mother's Day. Usually, I start worrying about it weeks in advance. I usually start planning weekend getaways and my game plan for dealing with the heartache this day brings. I like to away from home on this day so I can go to church somewhere else where nobody knows my story and I don't have to hear "It will happen someday for you". In fact, due to my lack of attention to Mother's Day, I forgot to send my own mother a card. (Sorry Mom).

I asked Ryan if he felt like today was my first Mother's Day. He replied "No, I've always thought of you as the mother of my children". And that brought more tears to my eyes.

So I went to church today and I stayed for all of church today. First time in at least 7 or 8 years. I did get teary during the meetings. First because I was holding Landon in my arms. And second because I still feel that longing. Longing to be able to create life. But those thoughts soon gave way to thoughts of gratitude for Ashley. This is the woman that made me a mother. Because of her, my arms are no longer empty. She choose us to be Landon's parents.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

another week, another poop story

A few months ago Ryan and I had big plans for our 10 year anniversary. Chicago, Seattle or Maine, but Landon came and that was the greatest anniversary trip/present ever. But that meant we spent our anniversary covered in spitup and poop which is fine, just different from Chicago or Seattle or Maine. However, Ryan gave me the greatest present ever that day. He took Landon and let me go to sleep at 6pm. It was heaven!!!

The next day he took me to dinner at Cafe Rio in Denver and we stopped by the Joann's that was close. While in Joann's Landon really started stinking. We knew we needed to find somewhere to change him. My preferred place to change a diaper when out is in Target. We couldn't find a target close so we stopped at McDonalds. Usually McDonalds is an okay place. Ryan decided to wait in the car while I ran in and changed him. I get him out of the car seat an start pulling his clothes off and realize there is poop all over, up to his shoulders! Yes, he has poop on his shoulder blades! It is going to be near impossible to get his clothes off without getting poop all over him. I get Ryan to come in to the womens' restroom and help me get his clothes off. Oh and the best part is, there is no paper towels in this restroom. Only air hand dryers. I convinced the workers to give me some of their precious papertowels to put down beneath him after I refused to use napkins.

So we managed to get him cleaned up and dressed in the spare outfit, but there was some poop left on the changing table. I went to ask the workers for some cleaning supplies so I could clean it up. They said they would do it for me. I feel a little bad. We weren't even paying customers. And that is our poop story for the week.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Little Landon

Little Landon turned 8 weeks on Friday. Isn't he a cutie?

He's started sleeping for 6-8 hours at night. Usually from 7 or 8 pm until 3am. Which is SOOOOOO nice. Now if I can just train myself to go to bed at 7pm then I will be really good.

And this is what our kitchen counter looks like.